There are times in our lives when events force us to look at where we are and what led us there. I am in one of those events, and my art and the direction I want to take my art is an area I have really been looking at.
I have been a creative person all my life, I’ve always had a passion for making things, drawing things, or painting things. Making art is almost a need for me. It’s similar to how some people view exercise and fitness, it’s a calling that needs to be answered. It keeps my head clear, sharpens my focus, and forces me to slow down and be in the moment.
My relationship with my art has always been a bit frustrating. You could even call it a bit contentious. I’ve recently come to the conclusion that I have been trying to live the art dream someone else had for me, I was trying to reach goals that were not set by me, but goals I felt I had to fill to gain the respect and admiration of someone other than myself. I’m sure some of you reading this may be thinking “just do what makes you happy!” But sometimes what makes you happy can be heavily clouded and blurred by someone else’s dreams and goals.
Letting go of thoughts you once held as truth can be very liberating, it can also induce a bit of panic. I’ve felt both of those emotions recently, and a few others to be honest. It’s liberating because you are free to go in the direction your heart pulls you, but it also can cause panic because you are now looking at and questioning everything you are doing, and you wonder if this is even the road you should be on.
This is my road, making art is the journey I want to follow, but it will be a new journey. The old goals of being a profitable and successful gallery artist are not the paths I want to take. It’s not me, it never really was. I am so much happier hauling around a sketchbook and a few drawing tools, filling little sketchbooks with watercolors, and putting on paper the world I see as I see it. And doing it for me. I’m not doing it for fame or gallery space, but doing it because it’s who I am. Will I still sell my art, of course, will I turn my back at a chance for a gallery show, of course not. But those will no longer be my goals. There are plenty of other people who thrive with those goals. And that’s great for them. We need artists who strive to fill galleries and sell art. But that’s not me, it never was.
This is me, pencil sketches and watercolor sketches. This is the art I like to create. Little glimpses into my world, capturing moments on paper with my pencils, pens, and watercolors. Maybe even a little storytelling.
I expect my journey to be a meandering trail with lots of stops and curves along the way. There will be new ideas, new places to sketch, and maybe even some new tools to try, but it will be my journey going forward. It won’t be for anyone else.
Thank you for sticking with me on this post, I really felt this had to be shared. New adventures can be fun taken alone, but there are times when you want a community there with you.
Take care, everyone…Erik