Challenges

Today’s post is going to be a bit longer than usual, I’ll apologize for that now.

When you go through a very challenging time you tend to question things, a lot of things.  That’s what has been happening here.  I’ve spent the last two years going through what has to be the most challenging time of my life.  You could say it’s been life changing.  Now I’m not telling you this because I am looking for sympathy, but more of offering an explanation of why I have been in and out of here.  Posting and not posting.  When you go through major life challenges/changes, you take a step back and question who you are, why you do what you do, and what really matters to you.  During this process, for me anyway, there has been a lot of questions and very few answers.  But as the static has started to fade away and I’m getting back to me, my core, I am finding what really matters to me.

So, how does this relate to my blog?  When I was really struggling I thought the instant response on Facebook and Instagram was comforting.  It was filling something that needed to be filled.  But in reality it wasn’t, it was just distracting me from what I really needed to face.  I thought I didn’t have the time to sit down and make a post that was meaningful and relevant out here.  I kept telling myself posting here took too much time, I didn’t have enough “followers” to justify I work I was putting into it.  The truth is, I really needed this to force me to sit down and slow down.

The demons and challenges are behind me now, for the most part, I think…and it’s time for me to really get back to doing what I enjoy.  Making art, playing with my camera, sharing these things out here, and of course, enjoying every minute I can with my wife and the world around me.  I was a very steady blogger many years ago, and I really enjoyed it.  I’d like to think I’m now in a place where I can get back to just being me and truly enjoying my place on this giant rock.

Now, let’s get on with the art!

Yesterday I saw these amazing shadows and reflections on the wall in my wife’s office.  It was one of those moments that only see when you are really seeing the world around you.

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I’m currently using a Canon 60D with a Canon 50mm prime lens.  When I was in college in the late 80’s I was shooting with a prime lens and I loved it.  The depth of field you can get with these is fantastic, and the challenge of the fixed lens is also very fun for me.

I think when you shoot in black and white you can really see the subtle changes in value and you’re not so distracted by the abundance of color.  I unfortunately don’t have the space for a darkroom so I am limited to shooting digital.  But, I do not shoot in a black and white mode.  The challenge of shooting in color for black and white is half the fun!

I’m also including a few of my favorite recent pieces of art, I don’t want this post to get any longer than it already has!

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I’m going to stop things here.  Thank you for sticking with me through this post, and again, the purpose for the first half of this post wasn’t looking for sympathy.  I just wanted to try and let everyone inside a little, try to offer an explanation for what has been happening inside my head.  I truly appreciate all the support everyone has shown me!

Take care everyone…Erik

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15 thoughts on “Challenges

  1. I was always impressed you were “ trying” things. Then I figured the next action was what you’d figured out once you tried that other thing. I thought you were bold in putting it out there, and it encouraged me. I enjoy the process:) Oh, and the art!

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  2. Great post! Glad you’re through the rough spot. Although, life seems to be full of various degrees of rough spots that are just waiting to jump up and bite you in the ass. I’ve been through a couple of major ones the last two years and I have what looks like a major change in my life coming up later this year. I’ll fill you in when it’s a done deal. Keep hanging in there. And keep the art coming!

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    1. Thanks Geno. And yes, life continues to throw rough spots, but as we continue along I assume the patches smooth out. Hopefully after your last two years your road starts to open open up and smooth out for you. Please keep me posted on your changes, you know where to reach me.

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  3. Wonderful post, Eric. I’m glad to hear that you are able to return to the things you enjoy. I have missed seeing your art and photography here on WP.

    You wrote in the post above “The truth is, I really needed this to force me to sit down and slow down.” and I agree! Slowing down and taking the effort to create a post leads to greater satisfaction for the blogger, as well as, the reader.

    I’m really glad to see that you’re blogging again and I hope to see more posts in the future.

    Also…wonderful art and photography as well!

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    1. Thanks Mike. I feel like I can start to groove into a routine…art, daily life, posting…getting back to enjoying life and not just trying to survive the day.

      I know I won’t be able to post daily, but my goal is at least once a week. I’m also putting some distance between me and social media.

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  4. Hi, I feel sympathetic to your up and down and around feelings. I often go through times when I wonder what the hell is it I do want! Glad you’ve decided to keep doing the blog. Just have fun with it! Love the middle drawing. Very expressive. Sort of a mild angrieness about it. Your blog wasn’t long. I like the variety of drawings and photos. Have you heard of blip photo? It’s a one photo a day of something in your day and you can write a short few words about it. Some people do it for years and look back as a diary. Some very cool pics there. Bob and I both contribute pics separately.
    This is too long. Take care

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    1. Thanks, Sheryl. The middle drawing was my first attmept at automatic drawing. I really enjoyed that process, I highly recommend it. Thanks for the tip on blip photo, I’ll have to look into that.

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  5. Hi, pal! I totally understand. Being chronically ill I do the same thing. Advance and retreat. I think it comes down to just doing what makes us happy no matter what anyone else thinks…and taking care of ourselves. I haven’t done art in awhile now and am just resting. Be gentle with yourself. You are loved! ♥

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    1. Hey friend! Hopefully you’ll be feeling well enough to start making art again. Even a little doodle on a scrap of paper does a soul good. I’m not sure how long I’ll be on Facebook, if you ever get a blog going let me know.

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