Today’s post is going to be a bit longer than usual, I’ll apologize for that now.
When you go through a very challenging time you tend to question things, a lot of things. That’s what has been happening here. I’ve spent the last two years going through what has to be the most challenging time of my life. You could say it’s been life changing. Now I’m not telling you this because I am looking for sympathy, but more of offering an explanation of why I have been in and out of here. Posting and not posting. When you go through major life challenges/changes, you take a step back and question who you are, why you do what you do, and what really matters to you. During this process, for me anyway, there has been a lot of questions and very few answers. But as the static has started to fade away and I’m getting back to me, my core, I am finding what really matters to me.
So, how does this relate to my blog? When I was really struggling I thought the instant response on Facebook and Instagram was comforting. It was filling something that needed to be filled. But in reality it wasn’t, it was just distracting me from what I really needed to face. I thought I didn’t have the time to sit down and make a post that was meaningful and relevant out here. I kept telling myself posting here took too much time, I didn’t have enough “followers” to justify I work I was putting into it. The truth is, I really needed this to force me to sit down and slow down.
The demons and challenges are behind me now, for the most part, I think…and it’s time for me to really get back to doing what I enjoy. Making art, playing with my camera, sharing these things out here, and of course, enjoying every minute I can with my wife and the world around me. I was a very steady blogger many years ago, and I really enjoyed it. I’d like to think I’m now in a place where I can get back to just being me and truly enjoying my place on this giant rock.
Now, let’s get on with the art!
Yesterday I saw these amazing shadows and reflections on the wall in my wife’s office. It was one of those moments that only see when you are really seeing the world around you.
I’m currently using a Canon 60D with a Canon 50mm prime lens. When I was in college in the late 80’s I was shooting with a prime lens and I loved it. The depth of field you can get with these is fantastic, and the challenge of the fixed lens is also very fun for me.
I think when you shoot in black and white you can really see the subtle changes in value and you’re not so distracted by the abundance of color. I unfortunately don’t have the space for a darkroom so I am limited to shooting digital. But, I do not shoot in a black and white mode. The challenge of shooting in color for black and white is half the fun!
I’m also including a few of my favorite recent pieces of art, I don’t want this post to get any longer than it already has!
I’m going to stop things here. Thank you for sticking with me through this post, and again, the purpose for the first half of this post wasn’t looking for sympathy. I just wanted to try and let everyone inside a little, try to offer an explanation for what has been happening inside my head. I truly appreciate all the support everyone has shown me!
Take care everyone…Erik